Here we go again…

Y’know, I’m so tired of being sick, I really am. It’s winter (already!) and the season of the flu bug, and we catch them all. That’s what comes of having a totally shot immune system. P and the kids will get a cold, we’ll get flu. It’s annoying.
Spent last night sleeping in 20 minute stretches, waking up all the time for no reason, so we felt like we’d had no sleep at all. Went back to bed about 11am, and things started to get nasty. Burning up, cold sweats, can’t breathe, everything aches and hurts, nausea, wanting to barf despite taking anti-emetics, so much pain, and the nightmares, oh fuck, the nightmares. Finally crawled out of bed a couple of hours ago, feeling like death, and we still can’t shake the damn nightmares, except I guess they’re daymares now.

Abject misery, blind terror and stuck in flashback hell. Again.We can cope with most triggers, but not this, not feeling this ill.

*closes eyes* This too will pass, this too will pass, this too will pass…

By all the gods, let this get better soon.

-Blaine

ugh we was so sik las nite

we got treeted to a macdonalds las nite an it was nice an it took us ages to eat. den we feeld so sik after, it was horribl. we didnt frow up but we wanned to coz we feeld so horribl an it hurted a lot too.its not nice wen u eat sumfin yummy an den it hurts ur tummy. in fact it suks. we was gonna play on r ipad but we didnt coz it was too scary to be out. dat suks too. i jus wanna feel beter, is dat so much to ask? frowin my hands up in dispair.

susie

we sik

don lik bein sik. stoopid meds we gotta tayk mayk us sik but if we don tayk em we get siker.cant win. i jus sik of feelin sik alla tym. us kids don feel sik inside but wen we cum owt for a drink or to play we feels it. i goin bak inside to play.

katie