Samhainn and Hallowe’en

We had a good Samhainn this year. We lit our candle, and thought of those who have gone before, and told them we loved them and wished them peace and love and happiness. It was very uplifting, and calm, and full of love.

Inside, we had huge roaring bonfires, and everyone walked between them to cleanse themselves. The kids Inside went trick or treating, and got tons of sweets and chocolate! There were turnip lanterns, coz we’re traditional that way, and warm cakes, and treacle tarts, and cinder toffee, and the adults drank honey mead and warmed cider. We put out offerings of food and drink in thanks for the harvest, and for the spirits of those gone before. The celebrations, if that’s the right word, went on through the 1st, and the whole day was warm and comforting and filled with peace and a sense of community. We ended the day with a feast of epic proportions, with tables and benches in the streets, and everyone contributed something, and there was much feasting and raising of glasses and merriment!

Outside, on the 31st, we watched Boo, Halloween 4 and Halloween 5! Nothing like a good horror movie marathon on Hallowe’en!

We manage to celebrate both holidays, without blurring the meanings of either one. Samhainn is for remembrance and reflection, of giving thanks, of meditating on the year gone by, and of those who are no longer with us. A time for community and closeness. Hallowe’en is for fun and sweets and the laughter of kids, and of movie marathons and popcorn. Both have their place in today’s world.


ugh we was so sik las nite

we got treeted to a macdonalds las nite an it was nice an it took us ages to eat. den we feeld so sik after, it was horribl. we didnt frow up but we wanned to coz we feeld so horribl an it hurted a lot too.its not nice wen u eat sumfin yummy an den it hurts ur tummy. in fact it suks. we was gonna play on r ipad but we didnt coz it was too scary to be out. dat suks too. i jus wanna feel beter, is dat so much to ask? frowin my hands up in dispair.


So, we’re getting older

It’s our birthday on Friday. We’re being spoilt that day. We’re going for McDonalds breakfast with our friends, and out to dinner in our fave restaurant in the evening with mum, dad, Paul and the kids. It’s going to be exhausting, but in a good way!

It’s a milestone birthday this year, and that makes ua think of all the things we haven’t done with our life, and all the things we wish we could do. We see friends from school, who weren’t as bright as us, and they’ve got great jobs and lots of money and go away on these amazing holidays all the time. And then there’s us, who live on benefits, are disabled, crippled, and haven’t had a holiday in 20 years. It’s depressing at times. There are so many things we used to be able to do. We’ve been a pre-school teaching assistant, a gold dealer, a pawnbroker, a shop manager,  a motorbike mechanic, run our own milk delivery round, and when we had to stop working, we were a double glazing company appointments and personnel manager. So much potential for a rich and varied life, and it’s all gone.

It hurts to feel your life is passing you by, and big birthdays like this one just rub salt in the wounds.

Still, we’re alive, and that counts for something! We have a wonderful fiancé, gorgeous kids, a family we’ve built and wouldn’t change for the world. And we might not have had all of that if we’d been healthy and circumstances had been different. We’d have been different. So I guess life has compensated us for all the things we’ve lost, by giving us what we have now. And we should try and take some measure of comfort in that.

We’ve also got a safe, stable and loving world inside, where people are generally happy and content. Sure we have our problems, but overall, we’re good. And that’s something else to cherish.

So, it’s our birthday on Friday. And we’ll celebrate! And eat! And we’ll enjoy it as best we can!


Sleepy and new friends :-)

its only 6 oclock but were so tired. we went to the shops and bought some foods and stuff and we walked with our crutches and that makes the body tired. its saturday night and the bigguns want to stay up and watch the afletics and tennis but body says no!

so were in bed watching the telly and surfing. oh oh and when we was shopping tarsha whos 4 came out and asked p if we could have sweets and he said yes! so we gots haribo rings! yay!! p doesnt even know it was a little, he just thinks its nick being silly! hes lovely and safe and funny and kind and we all loves him.

its good havin a computer in the bedroom coz we can read and play games in bed!

yay for new friends too! hi hats and jaime and dark and anara and tempest and tony and discobell and bunny *waves*

jamie im 4

And there was shopping

Not the good kind, with funky electronic gadgets and stuff. The kind with food. Which is good in it’s own way!

There is crispy bacon strips. There are mandarin trifles. There are strawberry cream meringues. And there are ice lollies.  Oh, and 4 boxes of strawberries. Throw in some broccoli cheese, spaghetti carbonara, and enough diced steak for a huge cauldron of Scouse, and there’s a lot of happy people Inside!

We drive OH nuts on the rare occasion that we actually go to the supermarket, rather than shop online. Keep in mind that OH, our fiancé, doesn’t know we’re multiple, and it gets nuttier! There are so many of us sticking our heads out and wanting things, we can take for-fucking-ever! Every isle has to be gone down, and there’s always a running battle between what everyone wants and what we can afford. Nick always gets first choice, of course, but after that it’s a bit of a free for all!

Today, I got my strawberries. I am a happy Blaine!