I’m back!

Did ya miss me?!

Been in hospital for a little while. I even spent my birthday inpatient, which wasn’t fun, but it wasn’t too bad. I made some new friends, who I’m still in contact with, and a couple of the girls on the ward even bought me cards and prezzies! Good friends.

I’m still in a fair bit of pain, and they still don’t know what’s causing it, but that’s par for the cause. On the plus side, I’m finally on a decent insulin regime, so I should be seeing results from that soon, which is a relief.

It’s nice to be home.

It’s our Birthday!!

We have been totally spoilt all day lol First we went out to breakfast, and sat eating our McDonalds muffins at the prom, which is a big park overlooking the Mersey river. That was lovely, as it’s one of our favourite places. We watched the rain falling on the water, and the mist rolling by. It was gorgeous!

Then, we got our prezzie from Harry’s lot. Would you fucking believe it, they bought us an iPad! Yes, a fucking iPad! Stunned speechless, we were lol How cool is that? We got all guilty coz they spent so much moneys on us, but they told us to shut up lol Totally awesome!

After a couple of hours messing with the iPad, we went and had a sleepy nap, and it was blissful. One of those lovely drifty naps where you feel all chilled out and stuff. We didn’t want to wake up lol But we had to.

We went out for a meal with Mum, Dad, Paul and the boys. Lovely foods, luscious apple and blackberry pie and custard, and more prezzies! Cookery books, sheepie notecards, a gorgeous silver charm bracelet, and a heartmelting photo frame with a pic of us holding our little nephew as a tiny baby! Awwwww, that made us tear up. He was born 3 months preemie, and spent 2 and a half months in intensive care before he could come home, so he’s extra special.

Now we’re home, with a nice cup of tea and a big sparkly pink helium balloon, relaxing and recovering lol It’s been a wonderful day, but oh so tiring. And I’ve got an email from my bro to read too! Happy times!

What a great way to celebrate the body being 40 *grin*


So, we’re getting older

It’s our birthday on Friday. We’re being spoilt that day. We’re going for McDonalds breakfast with our friends, and out to dinner in our fave restaurant in the evening with mum, dad, Paul and the kids. It’s going to be exhausting, but in a good way!

It’s a milestone birthday this year, and that makes ua think of all the things we haven’t done with our life, and all the things we wish we could do. We see friends from school, who weren’t as bright as us, and they’ve got great jobs and lots of money and go away on these amazing holidays all the time. And then there’s us, who live on benefits, are disabled, crippled, and haven’t had a holiday in 20 years. It’s depressing at times. There are so many things we used to be able to do. We’ve been a pre-school teaching assistant, a gold dealer, a pawnbroker, a shop manager,  a motorbike mechanic, run our own milk delivery round, and when we had to stop working, we were a double glazing company appointments and personnel manager. So much potential for a rich and varied life, and it’s all gone.

It hurts to feel your life is passing you by, and big birthdays like this one just rub salt in the wounds.

Still, we’re alive, and that counts for something! We have a wonderful fiancé, gorgeous kids, a family we’ve built and wouldn’t change for the world. And we might not have had all of that if we’d been healthy and circumstances had been different. We’d have been different. So I guess life has compensated us for all the things we’ve lost, by giving us what we have now. And we should try and take some measure of comfort in that.

We’ve also got a safe, stable and loving world inside, where people are generally happy and content. Sure we have our problems, but overall, we’re good. And that’s something else to cherish.

So, it’s our birthday on Friday. And we’ll celebrate! And eat! And we’ll enjoy it as best we can!